velvet sea

the clock keeps staring at me
from it's place on the wall
the cellphone begins ringing
and i wonder who would call
just for a second i felt
like i'm no longer cold
just for a second i felt
like it's just me in the world
the snowflakes go on falling
like all these passing years
the snowflakes go on dancing
oh,heaven's frozen tears
for a second i felt peaceful
like i was no longer gonna crack
but then i closed my eyes
and all the pain was back
so this night i'm gonna
sit right here
stare outside the window
ignore my own tears
how's it even possible
to hurt this bad?
how can i erase the pain
from my head?
for a second i though
that maybe it's not real
but the agony is here,
i can no longer heal.
the night is really close:
it's calling out to me
tonight i'll drown in that

dark and soft velvet sea.